I spent more than 20 years trying to heal on my own. This is what I learned when I finally stopped.
My way wasn't working. Here is what changed.
I was a freshman in college when everything changed. A sexual assault I never saw coming left me carrying pain, shame, and confusion I did not know how to hold. So I did what made sense at the time. I buried it. I threw myself into my career. I built a life that looked fine from the outside while something inside stayed quietly broken.
For more than 20 years, I tried to heal my way. I managed the darkness. I outran it when I could. And there were seasons when the depression got so heavy I didn't know how to keep going.
But God was patient with me in a way I was not patient with myself. Slowly, and not all at once, He began to meet me in the places I had been too ashamed to bring Him. Through prayer, Scripture, honest community, and what I can only describe as the tenderness of a Father who never left, I began to find my way toward something I had stopped believing was possible for me.
Healing.
I didn't start this work because I had it figured out. I started it because I know what it feels like to wonder if you are too far gone. And I wanted women to have somewhere to go when they are asking that question.
If that is where you are today, you are in the right place.
What you will find here.
This is not a space where you have to have it together. You are welcome to love God and still be in the middle of something hard. You are welcome to have questions, doubts, and feelings that don't resolve neatly. Nothing here is rushed.
A big part of what I do is help give language to what has felt too painful or too shameful to say out loud. When something can finally be named, it starts to lose its grip. From there, I help point you toward your next real step, whether that is therapy, Christian counseling, community, or simply a place to breathe and be prayed for.
You are not here to be fixed. You are here to be seen.
A little more about me.
I am a former Emmy-nominated journalist, a pastor's wife, and the author of SEEN: Experiencing God's Tenderness After Brokenness. I have spent years walking alongside women in hard seasons, first through ministry and now through this work.
But more than any of that, I am someone who has lived this. The 20 years. The shame. The slow road back. That is what qualifies me to sit with you here, and it is what I bring to every word I write and every space I create.
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